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Nathaniel Maram-North Carolina, USA
For as long as I can remember I have felt trapped, set up and trapped. I have had no explanation for it. I’ve always felt as if it was already over for me. I was just waiting to die. I knew there could be no happiness for me, because I had to hide out all the time. Whenever I stepped out, the voices in my head screamed at me to be careful, not to make a mistake.
I am being somewhat dramatic in my story. Most of the time I felt only this caution, and it was an inner voice at the back of my mind that nagged at me. But it was always there and I have never experienced peace of mind until today.
I recognized my life in this process, and I got a new chance at happiness. This will come only through service to others. That is my commitment.
Kathy Kennard-Michigan, USA
Thats almost hard to understand that until you actually go do it and experience it so its almost really... its more of a decision on faith or for me looking back it was kind of just this little... like a little nagging voice or a little nagging idea that like maybe somethings not quite right but I just can't quite put a finger on it.
And if you pay attention to that little voice or if you decide to just make a leap of faith the dividends will be huge.
But its a different type of decision to make because you dont really see what the options are until youve actually gone through it and only then, in retrospect you say like, "Oh, thank god" you know.
I was glad that I did. I was glad that I paid some attention to that little voice you know. Kind of like somewhere back there that was just telling me theres a little something here that you should pay attention to cause it wasnt obvious.
It wasnt like, oh my career is falling apart and my relationship is falling apart and my car is broken down. Nothing, no. Nothing like that.
Everything was fine except, I had a sneaky suspicion that it wasnt really, there wasnt something fine about it and thats what I, you know, I just kind of followed that little voice and here I am and its been a couple of years and so much has changed you know.
I thought I was happy but now I have a real feel for what happiness actually is down here. Because I was thinking I was happy but it was a thought and I actually wasnt happy. I was thinking I was happy and that was the thing that was missing actually.
Damian Dressler- Hawaii, USA-2008