and insights we are receiving from our students.
Avatar Integrity Course
I wanted to share a win with you all which for me is pretty big.
At the same day that the Geelong course started, I decided to do some work on secrets regarding my mother. Things weren't going too well between us and I knew I had a secret. I was stuck. I kept reading the questions, gazing out over the tree tops, reading the questions again. I felt I was in it, but just couldn't get it. I re-read the question, and it talked about what would I want to protect myself from, or want to protect someone else...POP
I realised my secret was that I wanted to protect not me, but my mother from things that she couldn't change or fix for me. I had been holding her and me to ransom all these years, just because I wanted to protect HER.
WOW. And since then, amazing things are happening in my space. I can connect with her. I no longer am critical of her. I can just be me around her. Souaad, you would know - you've seen some of our journey and the work I've done in relation to my mum.
Over the last year and a bit, I've been working through layers of commitment, and my lack of it.
I've worked in the printing industry since I was about 12, working after school in my mother's factory. (I'm now 39). For at least 15 of these years, I've been involved in the graphic design side of things. However, this wasn't always at my mother's factory. I would start to settle into the place, and then want to leave. I've left more times than I can remember. I'm back there now, working for my mother. I wanted to face my commitment issues head on, and had a clear goal of what I wanted to achieve.
I don't have formal qualifications for anything in the printing industry, and have recently found this to be a secondary to my next steps. So, armed with the Avatar tools that I have (many life experiences and reviews of the course, then the advanced courses) I faced it all head on.
Another win is that I set a clear primary about doing what I had to do to get formal qualifications, and have been informed that I should be able to get the ticket (same as apprenticeship papers) by providing evidence that I have done the work. A fee will need to be paid, papers sent off, and ba da bing...trade qualifications! I'm so over the moon with the whole thing.
I have a new appreciation for my mother, and my connection with her is awesome! Thank you so much for your patience with me. Andrew, remember when you asked me to set 5 type 4 primaries and I couldn't even come up with 2...lol. I know why now. Such a decision. Too many primaries to commit to. lol
Anyway, another success story for the Avatar team. Yay! Thank you all so much for your beautiful support.
Much love and appreciation,
Wow, what an incredible experience this past week being with others owning our muck and coming out shinier and feeling more connected! At one point the three of us in our group, John S. and Craig from Australia and myself - Kyna, laughed so hard we were practically in tears. It was amazing to go from tears of pain to tears of joy in just a matter of minutes becouse of the willingness to grow and the loving support of friends there. At the end of that day I had this epiphany about lightening up... "oh, that is what it means to create and en-lightened planetary civilization" as if after all these years later I still did not get it and in that one moment I felt incredible gratitude for you. I shared with friends later that the man that created these materials must be a funny man....thanks Harry, it is so nice to not be so serious!
I also want to share with you some thoughts in reflection of acts of kindness. You mentioned in one of your talks that you and Avra had some different expereiences with your flow back on acts of kindness. This brought me to ponder another perspective of my last year of a sabatoging creation. I was able to trace it all back to an initial act of kindness on my part not acknowledged as that. I see how it may not be so kind to assume others know that is what you intend (maybe they do not want to see the kindness or maybe I have really intended differently). I am now growing in my acts of kindness and am grateful for you sharing your experiences. It really helps to multi-dimentialize kindness. I also find it makes it easier to be humble knowing there is so much more to experience and share. There seems to be some core sence of peace in the midst of being humble.
Thank you for being you and sharing you with the world!
We had a Wizards Inspiration night last night and I was happy to watch your talk again from Pro.
The part that "to define is to stand out from the background" landed at a deeper level after this last Integrity where I worked mainly on Hiding/Not Showing Up. It was so beautiful to be there last night and coach my student from 8 years ago as he worked on his own hiding/refusing to share his power creation.
Thanks for putting yourself out there and your encouragement for the rest of us to do the same.
So long now I have wanted to thank you for the wonderful gift of these tools in my life. I've tried to write it at least 30 times and the words never seem to express what I am feeling.
I am so in awe of the materials and inspired by your journey to share them with humanity. My life is forever changed because of them and you?
Each time I go on course, I wonder what lies ahead and how it can possibly exceed the last. Somehow it always does!
This last integrity cracked me open in away I had yet to experience. It was weird and exciting in the same breath. I was gifted a moment to be in service to one of the new masters and to assure that her experience was a success. The initiation I gave was interesting and special as she explored many, many limitations throughout the experience. Then when we switched, she had many interesting moments during the initiation that she gave. Instead of getting irritated or making her wrong, I just took it in as my stuff and discreated it for both of us. It happened repeatedly throughout the process. In the end, it was the most amazing initiation I ever experienced. I came away seeing that I create my own limitations and after handling so many of our limitations as a co-created experience, I felt the final string I held so tightly pop. That is when I felt the edge of my own consciousness bubble dissolve. There is no one out there. The limitations I have created are great entertainment devices.... It is amazing.
At the end of the initiation I had a moment of hysterical laughter that I needed to experience. It was as though the cosmic joke had truly unfolded. I create it all....including the limitations I have placed in my physical universe.
The result was this incredible feeling of wholeness. No separation from anything or anyone. It was a magic moment....
Harry, I am forever changed and always evolving. The tools you have created and shared are beyond words. Harry, thank you beyond words. I feel as though a whole new adventure lies ahead....the vista is bright and the companions magnificent. Thank you for letting me be a part of it all?