and insights we are receiving from our students.
Avatar Integrity Course
I've been working on relationship issues and my ability to receive - or should I say controlling the receptivity of connection - both ways. After a bit of ownership and a Walk for Atonement I was doing the Compassion Exercise - and really felt the "Just like me...this person is..." I had not allowed myself to fully feel much of anything, and now that I I've reached a deeper level of feeling me - I can feel others and compassion for them - true compassion!!
WOW!!! What a blow-out day! I've been working on really committing this week. Today I did the ego program and when I was doing compassion, I realized that I still had a little "eek" feeling with someone that I've done a ton of work on. I came back in to check with John and he asked me to redo my "I am humble" primary and handle ALL my secondaries (even the super-secret ones that I usually don't see). WELL!! It felt like the gates of hell opened for a few minutes, but on the other side, the rainbow was WELL worth the few minutes of discomfort. I handled some of my biggest secondaries about being real. This course had opened the crack of gratitude and grace FLOODED in!! Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am leaving here with new life and a commitment to take my gratitude out into the world to contribute to an EPC from an authentic place.
Harry, I have integrate my big creation today, and my life has shifted. I have been suffering from the creation that I cannot believe myself. I have been repeating strict fault finding in others as well as myself.
Today I handled the area that I had completely shut out feeling with Releasing Fixed Attention because I was so eager to do so. First I began to feel it almost dispassionately, but gradually I got to feel it better and better. Finally I could completely remember it with the careful support of the team members.
I had a very deep insight after going through sadness, suffering, fear, regret. I've been suppressing with my mind what I've been feeling resistance to feel and what my intuition had been telling. I also had an insight that I couldn't have forgiven myself. Finally, after I created a primary I love myself, what had been separated melted, and I understood it and aligned with it. Tears didn't stop. I could really feel the primary created! I owe my success to you and your tools. I feel I've got back myself.
Thank you so much, Harry!!!
This is my first Integrity Course. And I attacked my team-mates by becoming a victim. That was my life pattern and I really wanted to take responsibility for that creation. So I worked on this identity about Avatar, the students, my partner and the parents. I recognized that I did a lot of cruel things to them and I could take responsibility for those things.
I would like to treat many topics in this course. I would like to become lighter and make the world bright! Thank you!
Jun Nishikawa- Japan- 2009