Persistent lower back pain has come and gone infrequently since 1974. I have found it has always recurred in the month of January. Recalling my history, January has often been a very turbulent and traumatic month. Something big was usually going wrong. In the pattern, I recalled a heart attack on 15 Jan. 1995, an aircraft emergency situation on the same day in 1990, resulting in almost losing my job. And an airplane crash on 15 Jan. 1967. During the Persistent Mass Rundown, I went to the core event which was on 15 January, 1966 when I had a bad break-up with my fiancé of one year. I handled it poorly and felt very guilty. I suppressed the guilt. I realized whenever I was triggered by our break-up, my back bothered me. Seeing the source-my guilt after a bad break-up-led me to crash one year to the day after the split, later to cause my own heart attack on the same day, and to sabotage my existence during many other Januarys. I dealt with the guilt and life is much better now. I have forgiven myself and life is so much brighter. Thanks for the tools, Harry. You are a Blessing to the world.
I have always felt separate from my Mother but now all I want to do is go home, wrap my arms around her and tell her, I love her.
To me Wizards was a given. Getting there, however, I had to face all sorts of dramas. My flight left midnight Friday, and I arrived here and went, "ok we made it". First thing: transgressions, secrets, agendas,and I went, "Excellent! Perfect timing!" And since then I've just been getting clearer and clearer and lighter and lighter.